Sunday, December 14, 2008


Wow, what an emotional roller coaster the past several days have been. It's very strange that in the midst of all the joy and happiness there's a whole new batch of anxieties and fears. Today I took the time to complete the most recent round of paperwork for our agency. There's a lot of signing and a little notarizing. One thing I'm having a hard time wrapping my brain around is Stanzi's medical report. John and I have to sign it and return it to the agency. I guess that's basically to confirm that we accept the contents of the report. I should mention that it's written in Chinese and it's 5 months old. We could wait until after our pediatric consultation on Tuesday, but I'm not sure that would make me feel any better. I mean, if we find out she's probably not "healthy" would we turn her away and wait for another baby? No. I can say that with absolute certainty, and yet I'm terrified. Maybe it's simply a fear of the unknown. Maybe I'll feel this way until she and I meet in person, but I hope it just fades away as our travel date approaches. Another fear I have is that I'll drop the ball and forget to do something that needs to be done before we can travel. What if we can't leave for China because a required task slipped my mind? Okay, I know that this little fear is much more irrational than worrying about my daughter's health, but it nags at me all day. Maybe the holidays will take my mind off of the worries and accentuate the shear thrill of having a baby. With that in mind I'm posting one of the other photos we have of Stanzi. Is she adorable, or what?


  1. Been there done that too! Everything will be fine, trust me. I was a wreck too for many of the same reasons. Everything will work out and be fine. As far as her health goes, with any child there is not a 100% guarentee. Your going to love her and she is going to be your daughter. And may I say...she is a beautiful little girl too!!!! Just gorgeous!!!
    Best Wishes and Happy Holidays!

  2. She's so beautiful. Worrying is probably just a natural part of the whole thing but she looks healthy and gorgeous. Hope you can relax and enjoy this special time. You have the rest of your life to worry about her ;^)

  3. Congrats on your referral! I hope I can ease your worries a bit with some lists, so that you can be sure you have thought of everything. packing list Medical items to take with you Important Phone Numbers Travel Resources To-Do list Feeding Suggestions in China Travel Tips Things to do in Guangzhou A letter for you pediatrician Letter to your friends and family about attachment Suggestions for attaching to your baby

    I hope that this takes some of the weight off your shoulders, so you can concentrate on getting ready for the most important trip of your life!

  4. Many Congratulations. The waiting is an ardurous process, but your life will soon be amazing.

  5. If this is a duplicate comment, my apologies.

    She is beautiful.

    I think that the stress level for the time period between referral and travel is many times worse than during the long wait, even though you gear yourself up for relief and relaxation.

    Ask your agency to translate the medical; mine came in Chinese, then I got an English translation shortly afterwards-a day or two later. The developmental milestones were very reassuring; our son was right on target or above for his age.

    Best of luck!

  6. Are you with EAC? I ask because that is our agency. We adopted in 05. Zhou is amazing. He will take care of everything. If there are any problems, he will take care of it. She is beautiful. There is also a zhouskids website.


  7. We are also an EAC family...and I just want to say, do NOT worry about that medical form! They are very routine, my sisinlaw is a doc and we adopted from china 3x and the only thing she said is worth looking at is some of teh blood tests if they are listed...everything else just says "eyes...good; ears...good...etc etc etc"

    you are goingto ahve a GREAT time with Zhou! Welcome welcome welcome to family-hood!

  8. Hang in there and know all of your worries are normal. I remember having dreams about forgetting to bring paperwork and then not being able to leave. I know it's hard but trust that in the end it will all work out and you will be holding your beautiful baby!

  9. She is absolutely STUNNING! Congrats on your referral! Enjoy the ride, it's a great one!!!!

  10. Also and EAC family.. We would love to have you over at

    There is wonderful support and friendship there...

    Zhou is awesome...We traveled with him in June..

    Susan, Riz and Sophia